Let me start from the beginning...
The past week or so (starting around after halloween) I have been fighting with a bit of depression. I have been having trouble doing things I usually like doing like blogging, working on my car, and my poor camera just sits on my desk taunting me. This of course is not as bad as not being able to do things I don't like to do...like school. Its been a cycle of .."oh I can't do this" so I don't, then get a bad grade, and that fuels more of the "oh I can't do this" feelings.
So yea...that and just not feeling well. I am sure its caused by a combination of things like school stress, money issues, hormones and what not. But I am going head on to try to combat some of these issues.
First is staying in good company. As tempting as it seems right now just to stay in from the cold and read in my bed, I am trying to stay active as possible and keep talking to people (esp how I feel and stuffs). T-cat has actually been pretty helpful. He is the kind of go-getter guy I need. My car has been stressing me out for a while, but he has helped with some of that. He got me to sit down and order a new radiator and today is going to help clean my car. So that helps a little.
Another is catching up on schoolwork. This is the hardest part and I am having mega-difficulties on this. I did spend about an hour at school last week to catch up in my computer class. My english class is lacking still....so thats on my to-do list.
The last ditch effort is to start over. Atleast diet wise that is. I am officially starting my honey diet today. I am a true believer about your body and mind being connected and whatnot. Poor diet is proven to be correlated with depression and mood related issues. The past week my diet has been so wonky I can't even tell you what I have eaten...its been more of "I am hungry, that looks decent enough to eat, so I will consume lots of it"..which is horrible. I even swooped down to eating a little debbie cake last week *hides from boos* Yea I know...that bad.
So the honey diet is a short detox program. Its last three days and is not meant for weight loss, but more to cleanse your system. You are supposed to drink tea sweetened only by raw honey and to snack only on raw honey. *Raw honey has live enzymes, vitamins, and most importantly antioxidants and bacteria-killing-healing agents in it. All in all its really good for you. The tea part I think is more because raw honey is extremely sweet and I can't see anyone eating more than a few spoonfuls by it self and not getting a little queasy. Altho as you probably know green and white tea has lots of antioxidants too, so it can't hurt. Basically during the three days I will be giving my body a little break from trying to have to digest bad food and junk and to revamp itself with good vitamins and minerals while destroying the left over junk in my body.
Hopefully this will help make me feel a little better through my body. Something close to taking a long shower have a hard day at work..except on my inside lol. I got all my honey info at http://www.benefits-of-honey.com/honey-nutrition.html and man I never knew honey was so cool...even if it is bee spit :x
*Raw honey is not the amber looking stuff in the plastic bears. It has a wax color to it because its unfiltered, unprocessed and importantly unheated. That makes sure that no enzymes are killed or filtered out. You are eating what a bear would eat if he broke open a hive. For these three days I got a 14oz jar from our local natural foods co-op for about 8 dollars.
So thats my plan to stop being so down. Its almost 12 now and I am hungry and tired (I am also not allowing myself to sleep past 9:30 either). But hopefully by the end of the week I will be feeling better. I am going to go take a shower and get ready for school. Lunch will be chai red tea with honey. :)
Wish me luck on this little self expedition!
Monday, November 16, 2009
Monday, November 2, 2009
Techno Ninja Here:
Hey guys. Halloween came and went. It had its ups and downs.
Friday: I got pulled over coming back from picking T-cat up from his poker night. I was pulling onto the main road (my tires skidded a little on the wet cement) and a cop pulled up behind me. He stay right on my bumper and then pulled right up next to me for a good six blocks. Finally he put his lights on and got me to the side. So he tells me what he stopped me for, but I will tell you in a bit just so you know how much overkill and ridiculous it became:::
So he tells us why he pulled us over.He asks for mine and T-cats identification and goes back to his patrol car. (T-cat had a few drinks and was sitting in the passenger seat just FYI). Then ANOTHER patrol car pulls up. After about 5 minutes the cop comes back and ask us a few questions. Then YET ANOTHER patrol car pulls up. The cop goes to talks to them as all 5 cops get out. The cop comes back to our car and asks us to step out. We do and they tell us to dump our pockets and we get frisked. Then we get pulled over away from my car and the cop asks to search my car **I said no. So he pulls out a police dog and sniffs my tires and such. He of course didn't find anything (duh) and gives me a ticket and lets us go on our way.
So lets look back and see what we have here: THREE patrol cars, FIVE cops, TWO friskings, and ONE drug dog. Why you ask? Did I rob a bank? Did I just get done with a drug deal? Was I speeding like a maniac? No. None of the above. Then what caused all this.....My tint.
Yes. My tint was illegally dark. Anywho I thought it was a bit of fucking overkill. I mean my tint was too dark so he felt the need to search for drugs? Ooookay. The funny part was when I was getting patted down by the female cop I heard on her radio that there was a breaking and entering going on. I thought to myself "Hmmm...maybe you should be there to help them stop that and leave the 18yo with the dark tint alone" buuuuut what do I know. Maybe illegal tint is higher on VA's most wanted list. Meh.
So yea. That was my Friday night (seriously it took like an hour and a half). Then Saturday rolled around. HALLOWEEN! I slept in til like 11 lol and then got up and took a shower so I could wear my ears and tail :)
Me and T-cat were planning on going to this heavy metal band's party, but the guy we were going with couldn't go so for a few hours we had no clue what we were going to do. But then I called my Aunt and we went up to her house to hang out and play pool. It was a lot of fun. We crashed there that night. Here are some pics:
I made the porch area all creepy with the rat and my skulls, then had it looking like my mom drove over somebody.
T-cat was a troll. He waited too long to get liquid latex so he was stuck with just painting it.
Here is their dog Coco being...well being Coco. She is a goof sometimes.
**KNOW YOUR RIGHTS! If you get pulled over and the cop asks to search your car, say no. Unless he has probable cause (i.e he sees a crack pipe in your back seat) or he has your consent he can't search. If you say yes, he can search and use anything he finds against you in court (an old beer can in the back seat for example). **Also remember that even if you do give the cop permission to search, you don't have to open any locked compartments, even if they ask you to. By VA law they have to have a warrant to get into any locked compartments like your glovebox, trunk, under your hood, if you have a locked tool box, anything that requires a key to open. The reason he was allowed to sniff was technically I was parked on a public street and he wasn't doing anything directly to my property.
That's all folks! Hope you had a HOWLING GOOD WEEKEND!
Friday: I got pulled over coming back from picking T-cat up from his poker night. I was pulling onto the main road (my tires skidded a little on the wet cement) and a cop pulled up behind me. He stay right on my bumper and then pulled right up next to me for a good six blocks. Finally he put his lights on and got me to the side. So he tells me what he stopped me for, but I will tell you in a bit just so you know how much overkill and ridiculous it became:::
So he tells us why he pulled us over.He asks for mine and T-cats identification and goes back to his patrol car. (T-cat had a few drinks and was sitting in the passenger seat just FYI). Then ANOTHER patrol car pulls up. After about 5 minutes the cop comes back and ask us a few questions. Then YET ANOTHER patrol car pulls up. The cop goes to talks to them as all 5 cops get out. The cop comes back to our car and asks us to step out. We do and they tell us to dump our pockets and we get frisked. Then we get pulled over away from my car and the cop asks to search my car **I said no. So he pulls out a police dog and sniffs my tires and such. He of course didn't find anything (duh) and gives me a ticket and lets us go on our way.
So lets look back and see what we have here: THREE patrol cars, FIVE cops, TWO friskings, and ONE drug dog. Why you ask? Did I rob a bank? Did I just get done with a drug deal? Was I speeding like a maniac? No. None of the above. Then what caused all this.....My tint.
Yes. My tint was illegally dark. Anywho I thought it was a bit of fucking overkill. I mean my tint was too dark so he felt the need to search for drugs? Ooookay. The funny part was when I was getting patted down by the female cop I heard on her radio that there was a breaking and entering going on. I thought to myself "Hmmm...maybe you should be there to help them stop that and leave the 18yo with the dark tint alone" buuuuut what do I know. Maybe illegal tint is higher on VA's most wanted list. Meh.
So yea. That was my Friday night (seriously it took like an hour and a half). Then Saturday rolled around. HALLOWEEN! I slept in til like 11 lol and then got up and took a shower so I could wear my ears and tail :)
Me and T-cat were planning on going to this heavy metal band's party, but the guy we were going with couldn't go so for a few hours we had no clue what we were going to do. But then I called my Aunt and we went up to her house to hang out and play pool. It was a lot of fun. We crashed there that night. Here are some pics:
I made the porch area all creepy with the rat and my skulls, then had it looking like my mom drove over somebody.
T-cat was a troll. He waited too long to get liquid latex so he was stuck with just painting it.
Here is their dog Coco being...well being Coco. She is a goof sometimes.
**KNOW YOUR RIGHTS! If you get pulled over and the cop asks to search your car, say no. Unless he has probable cause (i.e he sees a crack pipe in your back seat) or he has your consent he can't search. If you say yes, he can search and use anything he finds against you in court (an old beer can in the back seat for example). **Also remember that even if you do give the cop permission to search, you don't have to open any locked compartments, even if they ask you to. By VA law they have to have a warrant to get into any locked compartments like your glovebox, trunk, under your hood, if you have a locked tool box, anything that requires a key to open. The reason he was allowed to sniff was technically I was parked on a public street and he wasn't doing anything directly to my property.
That's all folks! Hope you had a HOWLING GOOD WEEKEND!
Friday, October 30, 2009
cotton candy, twizzlers, double mocha coffee, more twizzlers, and some laffytaffy...
Yea...that's what I have had today. I am hyped on sugar. I need to take a shower...but I just can't seem to get upstairs to do it lol. So not much really going on.
Um...Halloween is tomorrow! Super psyched. Even tho I don't have any plans yet :[ But I will make the best of it for sure.
I get to wear my ears and tail tomorrow ^.^ One day out of the year I am not a complete totally freak. ....Altho some may argue that I am a bit too "old" to dress up on halloween. You know what I say to them...Whatev...I mean really? Pull your undies outta your bum cheeks!
Oh and I am excited about candy...I am going to see if I can't pick up a few peices. I can totally pull off 15. Which is the age limit on trick or treating. Which I think is just plain stupid.
I really don't know what else I can write about. Update: So I can't bring myself to break up with T-cat. I have concluded to just roll with the boat.
I swear there was something else I was going to blog about...but I really can't think of any one thought right now lol so Ciao!
Um...Halloween is tomorrow! Super psyched. Even tho I don't have any plans yet :[ But I will make the best of it for sure.
I get to wear my ears and tail tomorrow ^.^ One day out of the year I am not a complete totally freak. ....Altho some may argue that I am a bit too "old" to dress up on halloween. You know what I say to them...Whatev...I mean really? Pull your undies outta your bum cheeks!
Oh and I am excited about candy...I am going to see if I can't pick up a few peices. I can totally pull off 15. Which is the age limit on trick or treating. Which I think is just plain stupid.
I really don't know what else I can write about. Update: So I can't bring myself to break up with T-cat. I have concluded to just roll with the boat.
I swear there was something else I was going to blog about...but I really can't think of any one thought right now lol so Ciao!
Monday, October 19, 2009
~Edens Fantasy~
So I love purple....and fur....and cuffs....wow you would think this cuff set would be a perfect fit.
Just so happens that CrazyMomseye. is having a 25$ giveaway to Edens Fantasy !! Check it out....but don't enter toooo many times...I still want a chance ^.-
There are also other blogs doing this too. Seems there are a lot of blogs actually. I am just a blog noob and had no clue lol.
Just so happens that CrazyMomseye. is having a 25$ giveaway to Edens Fantasy !! Check it out....but don't enter toooo many times...I still want a chance ^.-
There are also other blogs doing this too. Seems there are a lot of blogs actually. I am just a blog noob and had no clue lol.
.Nuclear Waffles.
Alrighty now. Let me tie up some loose ends. First off, I had a request for more info on T-cat. Second I realized that I asterisked something in my last post but never got back around to explain it.
SOOO....
Last post I asterisked redflags of myspace. See on myspace you can view anyones profile (as long as they don't have it set to private) so if you think you might get along with a person you can message them and/or friend request them. Seriously I get like 5-6 friend request a week. Mostly guys. So how do I sort the creepy creepers from the average joe? The redflags of myspace. Basically its a checklist I go through when checking someones profile before I message them back or accept their request.
1)first scan their page really quick. Do they have legit hobbies, interests, etc etc? Do they actually talk about themselves in the about me section...and not just about their looks or how the ladies like em?
2)Then check out their friends list. Seriously if they have more than 1k friends...denied. If most of their friends are young sexy ladies....denied.
3)Check out their pictures. I hate to sound judgey but really, if they look like a creeper with the typical I-want-to-take-you-to-my-basement smile...they are prob a creeper...or if they just have a bunch of sexy poses or half nakie pictures.
So if you are a guy and want to be my myspace friend, you have to pass all these things. Then again some are most obvious. I once got a request and a message from a guy, so I check out his profile. No kidding this is what his about me said:
I am a college student who is doing an experiment. I want you to send me a topless picture of yourself with some information. I go to ******* college and I am testing a theory about the self confidence of different women and how they relate to ethic groups and age. So please send a picture of torso up, topless, and include age, ethic group and some background info. I would appreciate this a lot! I need lots of them for a good experiment! Please help me with this project and you can be part of a scientific breakthrough!
....
.....
...REALLY??? I mean geeze the legitimacy is just dripping from this. I just wonder if he actually got any. I guess in guy terms, if he just got one it would have been worth it. The real scary part? He already had 3 chick friends...hmm...I hope to gholy cows they were just adding him to boost their friend numbers.
Anyway so T-cat passed all the redflag testing. He texted me one day and we decided to go see a movie (ALWAYS meet ANY stranger from ANY website or newpaper or whatnot in a PUBLIC PLACE....thats todays Maggies-Helpful-Hint ^.-) We went to go see 9 which was fantastical btw. He was a complete gentleman. He even held my hand halfway through..very cute.
Well he is great guy. He likes to do what I like to do. He even skinned a squirrel with me. I got him into letterboxing and he loves to hike. He makes me laugh and he is typically fun to be around.
....BUUUUTTTT there is always torns on every rose. For one I am very paranoid that he is cheating on me. Just a few incidents made me feel very uneasy. I can chalk some of it up to just me being cheated on so many times I may be looking for reasons...but not all of it. But I can't be sure.
Also its hard for me to have a serious talk at all with him. He just doesn't take anything seriously. Its very frustrating!
Another think is he just the average joe. Thats not a bad thing at all. But he is just not the guy for me. He can't understand the whole furry thing. He is sooo not into sadomasochism. Which makes bedroom life sorta lame (it sucks!!!).
Worst of all I just not in love. You know that little spark you feel when you really really care about them? I don't have it, atleast anymore. I want to break up with him. But thats the kicker....
I.SUCK.AT.BREAK.UPS! Plainly put. I do. I find it so hard to break up with him. I think my wolf just has loyalty issues. Like just because I am not happy doesn't mean I should break up with him. I am torn yet again from wolf to human. *facedesk* uggghh. I just need to blurt it out before I can stop myself. Any tips?
Oh and here is a picture for you *heart*
Just because its been so rainy the past week (altho I see sun today!!!)
SOOO....
Last post I asterisked redflags of myspace. See on myspace you can view anyones profile (as long as they don't have it set to private) so if you think you might get along with a person you can message them and/or friend request them. Seriously I get like 5-6 friend request a week. Mostly guys. So how do I sort the creepy creepers from the average joe? The redflags of myspace. Basically its a checklist I go through when checking someones profile before I message them back or accept their request.
1)first scan their page really quick. Do they have legit hobbies, interests, etc etc? Do they actually talk about themselves in the about me section...and not just about their looks or how the ladies like em?
2)Then check out their friends list. Seriously if they have more than 1k friends...denied. If most of their friends are young sexy ladies....denied.
3)Check out their pictures. I hate to sound judgey but really, if they look like a creeper with the typical I-want-to-take-you-to-my-basement smile...they are prob a creeper...or if they just have a bunch of sexy poses or half nakie pictures.
So if you are a guy and want to be my myspace friend, you have to pass all these things. Then again some are most obvious. I once got a request and a message from a guy, so I check out his profile. No kidding this is what his about me said:
I am a college student who is doing an experiment. I want you to send me a topless picture of yourself with some information. I go to ******* college and I am testing a theory about the self confidence of different women and how they relate to ethic groups and age. So please send a picture of torso up, topless, and include age, ethic group and some background info. I would appreciate this a lot! I need lots of them for a good experiment! Please help me with this project and you can be part of a scientific breakthrough!
....
.....
...REALLY??? I mean geeze the legitimacy is just dripping from this. I just wonder if he actually got any. I guess in guy terms, if he just got one it would have been worth it. The real scary part? He already had 3 chick friends...hmm...I hope to gholy cows they were just adding him to boost their friend numbers.
Anyway so T-cat passed all the redflag testing. He texted me one day and we decided to go see a movie (ALWAYS meet ANY stranger from ANY website or newpaper or whatnot in a PUBLIC PLACE....thats todays Maggies-Helpful-Hint ^.-) We went to go see 9 which was fantastical btw. He was a complete gentleman. He even held my hand halfway through..very cute.
Well he is great guy. He likes to do what I like to do. He even skinned a squirrel with me. I got him into letterboxing and he loves to hike. He makes me laugh and he is typically fun to be around.
....BUUUUTTTT there is always torns on every rose. For one I am very paranoid that he is cheating on me. Just a few incidents made me feel very uneasy. I can chalk some of it up to just me being cheated on so many times I may be looking for reasons...but not all of it. But I can't be sure.
Also its hard for me to have a serious talk at all with him. He just doesn't take anything seriously. Its very frustrating!
Another think is he just the average joe. Thats not a bad thing at all. But he is just not the guy for me. He can't understand the whole furry thing. He is sooo not into sadomasochism. Which makes bedroom life sorta lame (it sucks!!!).
Worst of all I just not in love. You know that little spark you feel when you really really care about them? I don't have it, atleast anymore. I want to break up with him. But thats the kicker....
I.SUCK.AT.BREAK.UPS! Plainly put. I do. I find it so hard to break up with him. I think my wolf just has loyalty issues. Like just because I am not happy doesn't mean I should break up with him. I am torn yet again from wolf to human. *facedesk* uggghh. I just need to blurt it out before I can stop myself. Any tips?
Oh and here is a picture for you *heart*
Just because its been so rainy the past week (altho I see sun today!!!)
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